Wednesday 31 December 2008

I am glad

I just had to stay awake till midnight. In 15 minutes, I will go out and walk on the beach here in the lovely town of Walvis Bay. I am alive and well. 2008 has seen many of the people I know die around me, many of them younger than me and have had HIV for less time than me. Yet I am alive and not sick.

However I know that tonight many African wives will have been infected with the virus by their husbands. That is a fact nobody can change. A certain number get it each day in Southern Africa where the most dangerous thing a woman can do is to get married.

Happy 2009. A condom a day makes life more fun.

Wednesday 24 December 2008

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

I wish all HIV Carriers and AIDS patients and their carers, researchers, and all those on earth advocating compulsory testing for all living humans followed by the issue of cards, Red for HIV positive, and Green for negative, a very merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

I sincerely hope that you will appreciate that compulsory mass testing would remove the stigma completely, specially in Southern and Central Africa where it would be clearly shown that those posaitive are in the majority and stigmatising them is not sustainable.

I also hope that governments will see that mass testing is the best way to ensure that those negative can choose negatives for sex and those positive can also be accepted by fellow positives for sex and it would be much easier to educate the negatives to stay negative and to monitor acceptance of the message. Fewer children would be made orphans like I was, and positive reduction of infection rates would me measurable.

Clever humans like Bill Clinton, himself a keen sexual experimenter of some international renoun, agrees with me on this one. He is by far my model man.

Tuesday 23 December 2008

Another Christmas

I know there are still two days to go but the amazing thing is I have survived to see another Christmas and might even see my birthday after the New Year.

I feel good and healthy. I look good. I am eating well and ave not had Cholera even when I went there recently.

However, Christmas is the time when in Africa many men travel to their rural homes from towns. There they take time to have sex with whatever woman they can isolate long enough to have sex with. Condoms are hardly ever used. Pregnancies are common, and so are STI's By January 15, many of you in Southern Africa will be looking death in the eye.

You should have your own condoms by now stashed away and carrying some in your handbag just in case. Men have no idea where to get them. Carry you own.
Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy new year.

Religion and Gayness

The Gay Christian movement is a funny lot. Is it rocket Science to note that you cannot have GAY and Christian in the same sentence? This earth is how it is because people mix what should not be mixed. If you are a Christian, then you are not gay, and vice versa. If you are a Christian you should abide by a certain code. Now I know that when I was working I was paid by many Catholic and other priests for sex, contrary to their beliefs, but those who paid me did so in secret knowing that they were wrong. Not so with the Gay Christians, They actually go round saying they are right.

Might we to witness the creation of the
Women’s Collective of Christian Sex Workers
The Christian Thieves Movement
The Christian Liars Movement
The Christian Murderers Movement
The Christian Rapists Movement.
Etc.

I do not think we should go round abusing other people’s groups in such a manner. If you do not believe in Christianity, Islam, or Buddhism, there is no need to create a satirised group about it just so you get attention.
Christianity and Islam exclude homosexuals from their congregations, and Islam seeks to reduce the actual number of homosexuals from in or near to their communities for fear of the men being asked out to tea. Why then would a gay person want to create a grouping following that?
They should stop wasting time and concentrate of preventing the spread of disease or rapes or paedophilia from among the gay movement, instead of confusing issues. Having one’s behind done regularly must be serious business on its own (only ever tried it once and failed ) never mind having to interrupt practice to prepare hypocritical sermons about how we should live by the WORD.
Choose ye this day how you will live. If you are gay, live a gay life, if you are a Christian live a Christian life, if you are a sex worker, live a sex worker’s life. Mixing is not good for anyone.

This why a dog like president Mugabe comes out and says they are worse than dogs meaning he knows neither dog, nor gay people.

Tuesday 16 December 2008

Western Reporters are sooo silly when it comes to Africa

Robert Mugabe's Air Force boss Commander Comrade (That is his Title) Perence Shiri was on his own at his farm when he came under attack by professional assassins. He was so good that he stopped to check his tires then got shot in the belly by one bullet from a number of assassins' guns in a sustained attack. He is recovering at an airforce base hospital.

I am a female civilian with no military training. Even I know that this was stage managed by ZANU PF to get what they want. A state of emergency. From working among Zim top brass in the past I know ZANU PF. This is not an assassination attempt at all. This is to blame MDC and to say they are training bandits in Bots.

The man shot himself possibily accidentally. The west are craving a rift in ZANU PF but it just is not there. There were no assassins real or imaginary.

Saturday 13 December 2008

Interview with the press. Zimbabwe Minister of Information

A recorded interview between a Zimbabwean information handler and an International news reporter. 6th December 2008. Mr Charamba, a UK graduate, was wearing a suit made in Italy during the interview.

Reporter: Why is ZANU PF abducting activists and killing them?

Mr Charamba: American are killing Iraqi activists. The British are killing Al Qaida activists. Pakistan is killing activists. Somalia is killing democracy activists. In Darfour activists die of their own accord, just like they do here.

Reporter: Is it true that ZANU PF murdering unlicensed miners in the Diamond region?

Mr Charamba: The UK secretly brought cholera into Zimbabwe for regime change. The diamonds belong to the whole country not just thieves. For example, none of my family members has had diamonds from there. I am a minister, yet I have no diamonds. Yet these people who have no positions in the government, already have diamonds. The UK would allow that in Zimbabwe, and not in the UK. Why?

Reporter: We hear that you are under-reporting the number of deaths from Cholera as you have done on deaths from HIV. Why is this?

Mr Charamba: Yugo Chavez said he hates George Bush. I agree with him. Don’t you. Hugo Chavez does not tell the Americans how many litres of oil he has. We do not tell Americans everything either. They do not tell us how many they have killed in Iraq.

Reporter: The American Secretary of State said President Mugabe ought really to step down to allow the country to move forward. What is your response to that.

Mr Charamba: The American Secretary of State is a peeping Tom.

Reporter: You mean Uncle Tom?

Mr Charamba: Whatever, He is a Tom.

Reporter: He is a she.

Mr Charamba: Exactly. I told you there was something of a Tom about her or her.

Reporter: What hasn’t the army been digging wells for the people so they can have fresh and clean water?

Mr Charamba: The Zimbabwean Army is not there as labourers for the people. The army is commanded only by the Commander in Chief, Comrade R G Mugabe. If he does not command them, they do not dig any wells. Will the British army go into Iraq without Gordon Brown saying so? I don’t think so.

Reporter: Are you not ashamed of the influx of your people into South Africa and other countries, because of cholera.?

Mr Charamba: These people should be going to America and Britain, because Brown and Bush caused the cholera. It is a shame they are going to our neighbours. You see we were only prepared for treating 89 cholera patients in the country. Bush and Brown infected thousands. What do you expect us to do?

Reporter: Why did you have space for only 89 patients in the whole country?

Mr Charamba: Brown and Bush imposed illegal Sanctions on us. We are reduced to eating bread without butter. Man! It is painful.

Reporter: The last time I interviewed you, you were talking about the “Look East policy” Did the Chinese not replace the west as your business partners then?

Mr Charamba: They did, we bought 38 tonnes of guns and ammunition, We bought 18 tractors for our farmers, we bought a new stove for the new presidential house, and 12 of our students have gone to China to study Military logistics. Look East is working but it is slow.

Reporter: What do you think your personal role will be in the new Unity government?

Mr Charamba: My role remains the same. ZANU PF will not negotiate my role with the puppet opposition. If you come back in three years time, you will still talk to me.

Monday 17 November 2008

Heard about Nigerians killing child whitches.

It started with the Catholic Church. If you are easily scared, do not read the history of the Catholic Church and what they did about witches. The same church has now been infiltrated by child molesters. Look after your children if you go to this church. I should know.

Witchcraft is a choice life style for adults.

Tuesday 4 November 2008

Offers galore.

When I was a sex worker I used to get Email offers for regular sex. The adverts even suggested that I could have regular sex from my local area.

Now I am HIV positive and battling with weight loss and I get offers of how to lose weight fast. I would like to stop the possibility of losing weight whether fast or slow. I am the right weight now but there was a time when I did lose weight without any to lose.

When I had no money nobody wanted to give me any no matter what I did. Now men will buy me a meal without necessarily wanting sex after. Even banks have offered me loans when I clearly do not need them.

I have had Emails offering me penis enlargement when I obviously don’t have one to enlarge.
I went to Zimbabwe in October and was offered food by someone who had barely enough to eat themselves.

The world is upside down. People are sharing the wrong things, offering the wrong things, acquiring the wrong things from the wrong people. The people with food need to offer food to those without, Those with money need to offer money to those without, Those with sex to give need to be offering condoms to those who want sex. Those with HIV need to only offer sex to those with HIV too.

Tuesday 28 October 2008

Dictatorship as an Angry protest

I heard that when President Mugabe was in prison a long time ago he lost two things very dear to him. He lost his child through illness, and he lost half of his penis through ambutation after having an STI for too long without treatment. It is rumoured that the latter loss has caused him to be a dictator.

Another Dictator, Idi Amin of Uganda, was also said to have had an STI for too long without treatment.

If you want to avoid dictatorships, fix your health service and test all men for STIs before they become politicians.

Wednesday 15 October 2008

FGM in Africa

This is 2008, not 1308. How does a mother who gave birth to a little girl stand by while the little girl had her clitoris cut off with a blunt piece of broken bottle?

Howe does a dad, the proptector of the family, on hearing what has happened to his little daughter, not kill the people who have done it? This is worse than rape, yet the official describes it as OUTMODED, like a car model. Its a pathetic situation. Uganda has done the right thing here, only several centuries too late.

In Zimbabwe, Botswana, South Africa, Zambia, Swaziland, and Lesotho, fathers are still infecting the mothers of their children with HIV. Its a sorry sight to see and a hard thing to imagine. Africa, the only continent where the population is axctively rejucing itself through death. The black race is cursed with a poor view of self worth.

What is wrong with Afrian parents?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/africa/7672236.stm

Thursday 9 October 2008

When an African man stops to give you a lift

He is not helping you out.
He is not after your money.
He is not thinking about his family.

He is simply thinking of the opportunity to have sex with you before you go.

If you are female between the ages of say 12 to maybe 65, try hitching a lift anywhere in Central or Southern Africa. The male drivers will almost always stop and let you jump in before asking you where you are going. If there is a few of you waiting, the driver stops past the group so that who ever can run the fastest, the fittest, gets the lift.

Count the seconds before the sexual discussion begins. If you are in Zimbabwe, you best having your own condoms becase the man won't have any. He will tell you he does not like to go in the shower with his raincoat on. HIV is making good progress. You can avoid it in your lifetime. Carry your own condoms at all times. You never know when you are going to get a lift.

Self oppression by women in Namibia

HIV has a long way to go in such as Namibia. Africa is Oppressed, and oppresive. Read for yourself. Namibia fought a war of liberation and won it. Now several years later, the population has not understood that it has to fight the war all the way through to iberate its women and free its children from male abuse. The men also have to learn to be free to enjoy life with their wives.

http://www.kaisernetwork.org/daily_reports/rep_index.cfm?DR_ID=54831

A man who has sex from from his wife, because he has demanded to have it while she has no option but to give it, must be a very insecure man. This is 2008. The world, even in Namibia should have moved on. In this climate, you can understand why married women are wantonly infected by their husbands. They are nothing more than mobile vaginas for their husbands to play with.

I have said it before. The women raise the boys who become man. Is it the case that the mothers are raising men who oppress the women? This needs to be looked at closely and addressed. In Namibia men do not raise children. So where are the men getting these attitudes towards women from? Appealing to grown men, sexual dictators, is almost futile. Dictators never give up.

Saturday 23 August 2008

40% of Swazis are positive

I heard today that 40% of adult Swazis are HIV positive. imagine them waiting with me for our fate. Imagine the number of banies being born with HIV already. Imagine them living only for up to 8 years.

yet the Swazi king still encourages promicuity full time. Why do Africans put up with these things? The Zimbabwe king, Robert Mugabe and his wife are also promiscuous and so are the seniour leaders, many of them positive.

I think only negative people should be allowed to breed. If you watch a positive child from when it is born to when it dies, you would totally agree with me.

Wednesday 13 August 2008

A little Girl, Jane

I am upset. A little girl I have known for three and half years died yesterday. She was nearly 7 years old and HIV positive. She has had the most miserable life and has suffered untold pain sometimes requiring total nursing which was provided by a family with their own four children. This means this family and especially the four children, have had to suffer with the little girl and will greive in her death.

There will be the usual search of who caused her death through witchcraft and other things, but we know that it was the little girl's daddy who willed that his daughter should have such a life. It was daddy, and now daddy is long gone along with mummy. It was daddy.

There is no escaping it.

My involvement in her life probably added time to her misery. But at the time I was sure life was better than death. For little children born positive and in poverty, death seems to me a much better option than life. But we still will not let them go.

Hope daddy is happy now, wherever he is. I keep picturing that family happy and thriving had daddy been faithful to mummy. Mummy recieved the virus without a protest or scream. It was her marital duty to do so.

They are all just pictures in my head now. Jane is really gone.

Monday 11 August 2008

Olympics

It would be better if, instead of holding Olimpics in a fascist state like China, people could look at what actually matters to life and hold olympics about it with all countries represented by someone of worth.

The biggesrt threat to blacks is HIV. The most affected six countries are all black. The highest number of affected peiople is of blacks. The least likely people to survive are black. The most likely to be infected in the next few minutes are black. Why? Because black men are on a lifelong sexual rampage because they cannot self-actualise in any other area. Most of these are married but are not getting enough at home and do not see their wives as fellow humans worthy of respect, but as accessories or bling.

We should as black people be holding our own sexual olympics and inviting other nations to take part. We should be taking the high sexual skills into the black home and increasing the sexual performances in the home. These are the olympics that matter more to black people than what people are watching on TV from fascist China.

Monday 4 August 2008

Only in Africa

Only in Africa does a man see a starving and unwashed young woman and thinks to have sex with her in exchange for soap and food. The sex workers in Africa work against each other and downgrade their vaginal worth.

The number of sex workers in SADC area is increasing and some of them are a sorry sight. I suppose I used to be like that before I realised the true value of my vagina. A man will volunteer to kill himself, kill his entire family, etc for the chance to have a 3 minute go at my vagina. There is nothing more valuable than a vagina to an African man. Europeans and other races are obsessed with the vagina as well, but they talk more and screw less. Also the price they are willing to pay is a lot lower than the black man's price. That is not to say sex work earns you less money in Europe Middle East or Americas, No, The men just do not kill themselves in the process. They see sex as recreation and make you work a lot more for your money.

In Africa the emphasis is on the insertion and a sex worker is just a mobile vagina and nothing lest. The fact that avove it is a body with a head and mouth, just means he can talk to the vagina through these other things and be able to quickly penetrate. Before he penetrates, to him its a matter of life and death and he would rather die than miss the chance to pentrate this ready vagina.

No amount of university education will move a Black man's mind from his D***k to his head. This is why HIV is more common among the upper classes of African societies in SADC. Even the vice president Zuma only thought to have a shower after the life and death situation was over and he had penetrated. He said in court, "Zuku culture does not allow a man to NOT penetrate." he was speaking for all black men.

Sex workers on the increase

Changing views

In 2005 a relation of mine was very happy to show off his new acquisition to me when I visited Zimbabwe. He had got rid of his wife and five children, accusing her of being a witch in 1999, and now he was married to a new wife aged 26. He is 64. The Zimdollar continued to fall and now teachers are not as affluent as they used to be.

I was saddened to receive a phonecall yesterday stating that his new wife, himself, and one of the two children they have had since, are seriously ill. He is asking for help with ARVs. He is the same man who once told me to go and commit suicide because "You bring shame to the family by your work, just think what happens if you become HIV positive." I was alread positive then but he did not know, or he might have killed me himself.

Men are the biggest threat to Zimbabwean civilization and survival.

His ex-wife now works in Australia and has educated her five children well. I do not think they will be going to their dad's funeral.

Wednesday 30 July 2008

Today in 1998

Today is a special day to me. It was on a Thursday, July 30, 1998 that I lost my life, my virginity, my future, and all that I stood for. I had lost the last of my parents three months before that. I had had to stop my education as well. My siblings and I were living in the rapist and his wife’s house at the time. I am the oldest and being female in a house with men who are not nuclear family in Zimbabwe is a serious threat to self when it comes to rape. There are many house girls who regularly are raped by the man of the house and get extra cash in return from him, without his wife knowing.
I remember the day very clearly, especially the fact that I had nobody to turn to after the rape. His wife was already ill and in need of a certain level of care, having been infected by the same man.

Blackmail

On 11/03/2008, I posted an intention to ask all former clients whose names I have in my diaries to contribute to the cost of looking after children with HIV or orphaned children in Zimbabwe or risk their names being published on the Internet. I thought many readers would appreciate that these men have no sense of loyalty or confidentiality since they were mostly married but had no problems visiting me for sex behind their wives backs, and paying me money obviously belonging to the family, for personal gratification, which they could have easily got from their wives free of any cost to the family. I was wrong. I have been accused of blackmailing people and deserving a prison sentence. I also got told that nobody would believe me and everyone would see it as just revenge for something I hold against the men whose names are published. Jo, the first man to offer to pay, pointed out that the list would not be fair since some people who may seem to be refusing to pay may well be dead. In that case the distress caused by the list would be untold.

At that point I relented. I will burn the diaries so that neither myself nor anyone finding them may not be tempted to use them in this manner in the future. The money to look after the children just has to be raised in some other manner. I think that it is the responsibility of all those alive to feed the children whose parents have died and left them too young to feed themselves. I was drawn into sex work exactly in this manner and now the cycle has gone full circle. I was added to the pool of those that are part and parcel of the problem.

The number of sex workers in Southern Africa and specifically Zimbabwe, is increasing because of hardships. A young girl who finds that she has a vagina that can earn her a good meal each day will not hasitate to use it. men with money are men with access to many such girls whom they share between themselves and condomlessly. Its not long before that young girl is infected and is infecting others accordingly.

Feed the orphans and let them be children for a while longer, and hopefully choose real men they can be in trusting relationships with. As soon as I found I was HIV positive, I removed my womb so I could never have children of my own to leave as orphans for someone else to feed.

Wednesday 2 July 2008

Oral sex with a condom

Spoke to a group of girls yesterday about protection. Most say they have oral sex without a condom, then slip the condom onto the man for vaginal sex. I have done this myself many times, even after I knew I was HIV positive. Fluids from a man start flowing the moment he gets excited There will be lube, precum and finally semen. These all carry HIV and whether one takes it orally or vaginally is really not important. The point is to avoid HIV.

So how practical is oral sex with a condom. I do not think many men would like it. So better not to start it in the first place, if a condom is not favoured.

Also remember, once a man is erect he has no brain power till he ejaculates. Don't expect him to think.

Condoms are expensive.

Monday 16 June 2008

Will I reach 30?

I think I am beginning to believe that I could reach 30. The life expectancy of women in Zimbabwe is 32. I could just reach that. I feel OK and I have been good. I am energetic and feel strong. Those who gamble could take bets on whether I will publish anything after my 30th birthday.

My boyfriend even says we should get married if or when I get to 30.

Zimbabwe army using rape as campaign tool

The Zim army is using rape as a campaign tool in many areas. Many women suspected of being married or related to opposition members are invariably raped.

Now consider that 57% of the army personnel are HIV positive. Also consider that when they rape a woman, they gang rape, usually more than five men at a time, and usually publicly so all can see and be afraid. Nobody will ever be arrested for this because anything political is not a crime in Zimbabwe while ZANU PF is in power.

If a soldier sees a good looking woman in the local area, All he has to do is accuse her of being opposition in order to rape her.

Now shut your eyes and imagine HIV dynamics in Zimbabwe. Nobody cares, Nobody will ever care, nobody has cared in the past.

Wednesday 14 May 2008

Why do I think I am close to death?

I always feel I am not far from my death. HIV is mentally reducing, I have no ambitions left. Its only whether I will be here next year or not.

But I am fine. Was talking to a friend in London who had her baby over five years after becoming positive. Baby is now 7 and my friend is working as a nurse. She is happy and settled. yet I can't settle.

Saturday 29 March 2008

Israel as a country and Fascism

I have been sitting here wondering why Israel is such a hugely fascist country. I mean the way they hate Palestinians and blacks is just amazing. Its just like Nazis used to hate the Jews. In my Country, Zimbabwe, Israel works closely with Mugabe and has done so since 2000 when democratic awareness started. Israel responded by selling sophisticated riot control water cannons to Mugabe, knowing what they would be used for.
It was Israel that provided a video used to attempt to convict Morgan Tsvangirai on made up treason charges.

As if that was not enough, they provided, together with China, sophisticated Internet and facsimile monitoring equipment to track messages between citizens for the purpose of secret murders and beatings.

Now during the election, Israel assisted Mugabe to rig election. Why does Israel hate us, blacks, so much? What have we ever done to them? You woud think that a country made up of former victims of fascism would set an example to the rest of the world on how to behave. Some Hitler really rubbed off onto them. Their friend Mugabe even boasts of being a Hitler, but they do not see anything wrong in that.

Monday 17 March 2008

Love and loyalty not together for black men.

For most women I have met, when they love, they become loyal. For all men I have had a chance to talk to, love is one thing and loyalty is completely another. Loyalty for men is not at all difficult to get rid of. I was once in a restaurant with a married man I knew and we were discussing why men have difficulty with loyalty to their wives. He made pronouncements about how loyal he was to his wife. After listening I asked if he would say NO if I offered him sex after the meal. His answer was, “Well normally I would say no, but you are my friend and my wife’s friend, so I would feel obliged to accept as loyalty to a friend.” We heard Jacob Zuma in court saying it is not allowed for a true Zulu man to see an aroused woman and do nothing about her plight. This implies that the whole Zulu nation has no idea about loyalty to one’s spouse.

It must also mean the Zulu women expect to any man they meet to give them sex on first evidence of need. But no, the men expect themselves to be free to deal with women’s arousal states, but the women are not allowed the same freedom.

In Namibia the equation is different. A husband returning from a long trip does not go directly home. He arrives at a home nearby and sends a little child to go and inform his wife that he is back. This is done in order to allow time for any other man who might have been pleasuring his wife to leave before the husband arrives. I like that idea. In Zimbabwe the husband, on suspecting that his wife might have a lover, would creep in to try to catch him. If he did catch them at it, he would seek to divorce his wife and accept a fine from the man. This is despite the fact that he (the husband) might well have a number of girlfriends himself at the time he catches his wife with one boyfriend.

The attitude of confused loyalty, is one factor which has helped HIV to spread fast. In Zimbabwe the leader, Robert Mugabe set an example by having illicit sex with Grace while she was married to another man and he to another woman. The vice president’s husband, Solomon was said by his wife to be having affairs. Gideon Gono the Reserve bank chief is known to have affairs,. Other important politicians have affairs that are known by the public. These are mostly men. There is disapproval when a prominent woman has affairs. In South Africa, Zuma espoused the virtues of a Zulu man regarding sex, seeing himself as the essence of virility when talking under oath. He was talking for the black man. The back man’s whole persona, is symbolised by his penis and its functions. A black man will love his wife to bits, but will go where his penis leads him. The other woman needs it just as much. Loyalty to his race is of higher value than loyalty to his wife. The wives know it.

Tuesday 11 March 2008

Thinking of listing all the important men I have had sex with

Lately I have been thinking to list in aphabetic order all the men I have had sex with whose names I logged in my diary at the time. I have some Zimbabwean politicians, police, businessmen, council workers, and others in South Africa, Namibia, Botswana, Swaziland, Kenya Soudi Arabia, etc.

I have most of this information in my electronic diary and it would be a matter of pasting into a wordprocessor and publishing the list with dates.

If you would like your name left out of the list, then please send USD500 by PayPal to my address, instantmoyo@yahoo.co.uk. The deadline is 01 June 2008. After this date no amount of money will stop your name appearing on the list.

The money will go to two Zimbabwean charities dealing with people with HIV.

If you were a time filler and I did not ask you your name, then do not send any money. The two Australian men I met in LOndon I will not list because they made me laugh, and paid me well for the video. The Prince from Saudi is also exemmpt. He is a lovely man, and so is the Turkish man who made me earn my pay.

Monday 10 March 2008

A man I used to know died last week.

I have known him (Brian) for some years and he was a good man. He left Zimbabwe for the greener pastures of South Africa and worked as a driver, a factory worker, and at one time a burgler and rober. He visited Botswana, and Swaziland.

When the going was good he had a live-in girl for his sexual needs. When the going was no so good he just had sex workers when he could afford. This is the thing. All women like to exchange money for sex. Just that those who do not work as sex workers do not get paid directly. The want a man when he has money and they leave him when he has no money. Just like us.

He married a South African girl and has a baby by her, an HIV positive baby. When she found out he was HIV positive, she left him and married another man who is now also HIV positive from having sex with her. The baby will hopefully die before its mother and the new husband die.

I travelled to Zimbabwe for his funeral when I heard. I got there to find his body was delayed at Beit Bridge crossing point. Mugabe's government, realising the business potenial of receiving bodies of citizens who die outside the country has devised a method of earning forex from the trade. USD180 is the fee for looking at the dead man's passport and accepting that he is Zimbabwean. The guy who signs the papers on behalf of the government wants back handers of Rand 400. He is a magistrate of the Republic of Zimbabwe at Beit Bridge. I wonder if Mugabe gets a cut from that trade.

I never had sex with Brian whom I saw as my big brother. He died at 33 years of age. He was the sole bread winner for his sister and mother in Zimbabwe. As we were listening to the farewell speeches, the price of goods in Zimbabwe doubled during the period it took to deliver the speechs.

Sunday 17 February 2008

Number of people dying of HIV/AIDS

You do not realise how many people are dying from AIDS till you have HIV yourself and you start befriending others who have. Then you start attending their funerals.

It is frightening. Each time I get back from one funeral I wonder if I am next. At one time I even wrote down what I would like my funeral to be like.

I have heard of people who have a NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE. I think I have had one since I was diagnosed.

Thursday 17 January 2008

Another of my friends died.

She was on ARVs like me and she had looked good at times. But eventually something catches up with you and you die. Each time someone I know dies I feel depressed for a while and I battle to pick myself up and carry on. HIV is a very difficult thing to live with.

Friday 11 January 2008

Kenya

I think I am right to say what has happened in Kenya would not have happened had a woman been in charge.

Men just go round causing trouble and death.

Wednesday 9 January 2008

Leaders in the Black Race!!!

A few questions for leaders of black race people:
1 Why is it black people have the most diseases among them?
2 Why is it black people have the least life skills amoung them?
3 Why is it black people suffer the most unnatural disasters on earth, famine, wars, dictatorships, shortages, disease, poverty, etc?
4 Why is it that the biggest threat to a black woman's life is marriage?
5 Why are we (blacks) the only race that is either reducing in number or not increasing as fast?
6 Why do we (blacks) have the least intellectually equipped leaders wherever we are, even in countries where we have settled?

I got HIV because a highly educated black man, a graduate, believed he could cure himself by raping a virgin. He got that belief from a SANGOMA, (witch doctor to uninformed foreigners)who is most likely not at all educated. Is education wasted on blacks then?

Black leaders are a total failure in most cases. I like the Namibian leadership though. They manage democracy better than any other black country there is apart from Botswana maybe. That is why I spend time here more than anywhere else now.