Blackmail

On 11/03/2008, I posted an intention to ask all former clients whose names I have in my diaries to contribute to the cost of looking after children with HIV or orphaned children in Zimbabwe or risk their names being published on the Internet. I thought many readers would appreciate that these men have no sense of loyalty or confidentiality since they were mostly married but had no problems visiting me for sex behind their wives backs, and paying me money obviously belonging to the family, for personal gratification, which they could have easily got from their wives free of any cost to the family. I was wrong. I have been accused of blackmailing people and deserving a prison sentence. I also got told that nobody would believe me and everyone would see it as just revenge for something I hold against the men whose names are published. Jo, the first man to offer to pay, pointed out that the list would not be fair since some people who may seem to be refusing to pay may well be dead. In that case the distress caused by the list would be untold.

At that point I relented. I will burn the diaries so that neither myself nor anyone finding them may not be tempted to use them in this manner in the future. The money to look after the children just has to be raised in some other manner. I think that it is the responsibility of all those alive to feed the children whose parents have died and left them too young to feed themselves. I was drawn into sex work exactly in this manner and now the cycle has gone full circle. I was added to the pool of those that are part and parcel of the problem.

The number of sex workers in Southern Africa and specifically Zimbabwe, is increasing because of hardships. A young girl who finds that she has a vagina that can earn her a good meal each day will not hasitate to use it. men with money are men with access to many such girls whom they share between themselves and condomlessly. Its not long before that young girl is infected and is infecting others accordingly.

Feed the orphans and let them be children for a while longer, and hopefully choose real men they can be in trusting relationships with. As soon as I found I was HIV positive, I removed my womb so I could never have children of my own to leave as orphans for someone else to feed.