Love and loyalty not together for black men.

For most women I have met, when they love, they become loyal. For all men I have had a chance to talk to, love is one thing and loyalty is completely another. Loyalty for men is not at all difficult to get rid of. I was once in a restaurant with a married man I knew and we were discussing why men have difficulty with loyalty to their wives. He made pronouncements about how loyal he was to his wife. After listening I asked if he would say NO if I offered him sex after the meal. His answer was, “Well normally I would say no, but you are my friend and my wife’s friend, so I would feel obliged to accept as loyalty to a friend.” We heard Jacob Zuma in court saying it is not allowed for a true Zulu man to see an aroused woman and do nothing about her plight. This implies that the whole Zulu nation has no idea about loyalty to one’s spouse.

It must also mean the Zulu women expect to any man they meet to give them sex on first evidence of need. But no, the men expect themselves to be free to deal with women’s arousal states, but the women are not allowed the same freedom.

In Namibia the equation is different. A husband returning from a long trip does not go directly home. He arrives at a home nearby and sends a little child to go and inform his wife that he is back. This is done in order to allow time for any other man who might have been pleasuring his wife to leave before the husband arrives. I like that idea. In Zimbabwe the husband, on suspecting that his wife might have a lover, would creep in to try to catch him. If he did catch them at it, he would seek to divorce his wife and accept a fine from the man. This is despite the fact that he (the husband) might well have a number of girlfriends himself at the time he catches his wife with one boyfriend.

The attitude of confused loyalty, is one factor which has helped HIV to spread fast. In Zimbabwe the leader, Robert Mugabe set an example by having illicit sex with Grace while she was married to another man and he to another woman. The vice president’s husband, Solomon was said by his wife to be having affairs. Gideon Gono the Reserve bank chief is known to have affairs,. Other important politicians have affairs that are known by the public. These are mostly men. There is disapproval when a prominent woman has affairs. In South Africa, Zuma espoused the virtues of a Zulu man regarding sex, seeing himself as the essence of virility when talking under oath. He was talking for the black man. The back man’s whole persona, is symbolised by his penis and its functions. A black man will love his wife to bits, but will go where his penis leads him. The other woman needs it just as much. Loyalty to his race is of higher value than loyalty to his wife. The wives know it.

Thinking of listing all the important men I have had sex with

Lately I have been thinking to list in aphabetic order all the men I have had sex with whose names I logged in my diary at the time. I have some Zimbabwean politicians, police, businessmen, council workers, and others in South Africa, Namibia, Botswana, Swaziland, Kenya Soudi Arabia, etc.

I have most of this information in my electronic diary and it would be a matter of pasting into a wordprocessor and publishing the list with dates.

If you would like your name left out of the list, then please send USD500 by PayPal to my address, instantmoyo@yahoo.co.uk. The deadline is 01 June 2008. After this date no amount of money will stop your name appearing on the list.

The money will go to two Zimbabwean charities dealing with people with HIV.

If you were a time filler and I did not ask you your name, then do not send any money. The two Australian men I met in LOndon I will not list because they made me laugh, and paid me well for the video. The Prince from Saudi is also exemmpt. He is a lovely man, and so is the Turkish man who made me earn my pay.

A man I used to know died last week.

I have known him (Brian) for some years and he was a good man. He left Zimbabwe for the greener pastures of South Africa and worked as a driver, a factory worker, and at one time a burgler and rober. He visited Botswana, and Swaziland.

When the going was good he had a live-in girl for his sexual needs. When the going was no so good he just had sex workers when he could afford. This is the thing. All women like to exchange money for sex. Just that those who do not work as sex workers do not get paid directly. The want a man when he has money and they leave him when he has no money. Just like us.

He married a South African girl and has a baby by her, an HIV positive baby. When she found out he was HIV positive, she left him and married another man who is now also HIV positive from having sex with her. The baby will hopefully die before its mother and the new husband die.

I travelled to Zimbabwe for his funeral when I heard. I got there to find his body was delayed at Beit Bridge crossing point. Mugabe's government, realising the business potenial of receiving bodies of citizens who die outside the country has devised a method of earning forex from the trade. USD180 is the fee for looking at the dead man's passport and accepting that he is Zimbabwean. The guy who signs the papers on behalf of the government wants back handers of Rand 400. He is a magistrate of the Republic of Zimbabwe at Beit Bridge. I wonder if Mugabe gets a cut from that trade.

I never had sex with Brian whom I saw as my big brother. He died at 33 years of age. He was the sole bread winner for his sister and mother in Zimbabwe. As we were listening to the farewell speeches, the price of goods in Zimbabwe doubled during the period it took to deliver the speechs.

Number of people dying of HIV/AIDS

You do not realise how many people are dying from AIDS till you have HIV yourself and you start befriending others who have. Then you start attending their funerals.

It is frightening. Each time I get back from one funeral I wonder if I am next. At one time I even wrote down what I would like my funeral to be like.

I have heard of people who have a NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE. I think I have had one since I was diagnosed.

Another of my friends died.

She was on ARVs like me and she had looked good at times. But eventually something catches up with you and you die. Each time someone I know dies I feel depressed for a while and I battle to pick myself up and carry on. HIV is a very difficult thing to live with.

Kenya

I think I am right to say what has happened in Kenya would not have happened had a woman been in charge.

Men just go round causing trouble and death.

Leaders in the Black Race!!!

A few questions for leaders of black race people:
1 Why is it black people have the most diseases among them?
2 Why is it black people have the least life skills amoung them?
3 Why is it black people suffer the most unnatural disasters on earth, famine, wars, dictatorships, shortages, disease, poverty, etc?
4 Why is it that the biggest threat to a black woman's life is marriage?
5 Why are we (blacks) the only race that is either reducing in number or not increasing as fast?
6 Why do we (blacks) have the least intellectually equipped leaders wherever we are, even in countries where we have settled?

I got HIV because a highly educated black man, a graduate, believed he could cure himself by raping a virgin. He got that belief from a SANGOMA, (witch doctor to uninformed foreigners)who is most likely not at all educated. Is education wasted on blacks then?

Black leaders are a total failure in most cases. I like the Namibian leadership though. They manage democracy better than any other black country there is apart from Botswana maybe. That is why I spend time here more than anywhere else now.